Ch.1 1919

I will never forget the day i met Valeria Moreno. he sat at his desk and wrote, cos that day was April, 20 1919. His life was about to change forever, he sat praying on the edge of the bed in the hotel room minutes before his wedding to his love jean acker. *jesus por favor manda me un anjelita* then he prayed in english,. ''dear god, please if you love me at all please send me an angel, i really need to see the light because iam losing faith'' Valeria was in the room above them, she had just had a terrible row with her master who just beaten her bloody and left her alone in the bedroom crying. she carefully moved to the bathroom, she opened the cabinet and took out a small green pill bottle, on which was marked dexadrine. she took a deep breath and opened the bottle, she spilled out several pills in her hands and swallowed them all in a moment. then went a layed down on the bed. she closed her eyes and slept for a few hours. when all of a sudden she was awken by the sound of the door slamming downstairs and shouting. determined to end it all and jump out the window she waited for a moment. about 45 minutes had passed when she listened carefully. she heard her master comming back, she jolted and went to the window, looked and listend for a minute, she the grabbed her things *thatshe treasured anyways and threw them out the window before her*. as the door opened slowly and she heard his voice, she put one foot out the window and then fell out. as she fell from the window she felt branches scratch and, the break as she fell to the cold hard ground. ''oh my god'' she heard a voice say as she slipt in and out of blackness. then when she woke up she was laying in a nicely decorated room, in the same hotel but clearly out of site, she heard a lovely voice in the next room, but couldnt move. ''i already told you, i love you why did you slam the door in my face, i mean i cant force my presence on you but i am now your husband, i feel something for you dont u feel anything for me''. she listened as she tried to move from the bed. she rolled over and fell out of the bed. she tried to crawl to the door but the pain over took her. ''ohhhhhhh oooooowwwww'' she said as she tried to get back to the bed. she rolled over to her left when the door opened, and she heard his voice again. ''aye anjelita* he said as he helpped her back into the bed. he kissed her forhead, and said ''i've already rang for the doctor and he and a nurse shall be here shortly then will be leaving ok''. he said putting the blankets back over her. she nodded her eyes still closed as i sat down in the chair next to the bed and read the newspaper. a few minutes later the house boy came into the room and said ''sir the dr. has arrived''. the doctor came in and pulled down the blankets and starteed examining her. she opened her eyes when the doctor was moving her bones and joints back into place. she opened her eyes as i held her hand and knelt beside the bed next to her. ''sir you going to have to wait outside as i bandage her up, she has several broken bones''. ''no, please dont leave me, i wont do anything i promise but dont leave meok'' she said pulling me closer to her as the doctor gave her a sedative. and said '' ive given her a mild sedative, so she can sleep while i apply the bandages, she'll be in a lot of pain just monitor her comsumption of morphine''. he said as he then said ''broken several ribs, her left hip right leg and shattered her ankle''. ''oh dear''. i said petting her head a she slept. a little while later after the doctor had left and i was packing are things, i said a quicky prayer. ''thank you god thank you so much, i knew you wouldnt let me down''. then she awoke and stirred. ''angel'' i said as she opened her eyes and said ''where am i''. ''your here with me now you're alright iam just packing for us to leave''. ''leave where'' she said as heard the door bell ring. ''back to my apartment darling''. ''please you cant let him find me, if he finds me he'll kill me'' she said grabbing my shirt and i replied ''he gave you those welts and brusies on your back, and what pills did you take''. ''yes he did, i dont know they were in a green bottle, why''. ''cos you were throwing up white powder when i was cleaning up up'' he said in his accent. then all of a sudden she said ''my name is Valeria Moreno and god help u if you tell anyone where i am''. ''i willnot i promise'' i said as i carresed her cheek when i heard shouting in the next room. ''ill be right back ok darling''. she nodded as i opened the door. but i guess they had left as i didnt see anyone and went back to packing. when we arrived back at my apartment later that night. Valeria had a hard time sleeping as she was in so much pain. the next morning however when i was one the phone to my lawyer speaking to him bout the weeks past events and getting him to file my divorce papers. i told him bout valeria ''shes so lovely, i cant believe she fell out of the sky''. ''iam sure she didnt fall from the sky rudy, maybe out of the window or something, where is she now''. ''in bed asleep, where else i mean she really isnt mobile right now''. ''well what if when she does become mobile, she wants to leave'' i paused for moment then said ''well i hope we dont have to cross that bridge right now, so ill speak to you later ramon is here''. i said hanging up the phone as ramon arrived to see the lovely angel who had fallen from the sky just for me. ''well then rudy where is this beautiful creature you speak of''. he said as i said ''shes in my bed right now''. ''already what a lady killer i am very jealous''. ''stop that right now man, i already told you its not like that between you and me anymore'' i said as i led him to the bedroom. ''oh my god, Rudy do you know who this is, her face is all over this mornings paper she *belongs*to Jason Monaghan the lawyer that's in town from Texas, and is staying till he finds miss moreno, rudy you could be in so much trouble''. '' iam not in trouble because i have proof he was abusing her and gave her drugs the night she fell from the roof''. ''oh god rudy, you have to do something''. ''i will not she is mine and she is staying she already told me she didnt want to go back''. ''well don't say i didnt warn you'' he said as he placed a loving hand on my back. i moved away from him quickly as he said ''why did you move, you never shyed away from my touch before''. ''get away from me, and never come back to my house again'' i said taking valeria's hand as she awoke. he took his coat and hat and left. i never saw him again. i would later hear bout him again when he confronted Valeria at her birthday party. ''Who was that'' she said picking her head up as he slammed the door behind him. ''no one''. i said as i looked lovingly at her. ''will you help me get dresses because i would like to sit in the kitchen''. ''sure i can help you'' i said gently pulling her out of bed and going to the closet. ''umm you didnt have a lot of clothing and things so i had most of it cleaned and had some new things brought in for you if that is ok''. ''yes but there was a blue kimono type gown in that bag is it in there'' she said ''yes it here, the powder bloue one right''. i said stepping into the closet and pulling it out. ''alright, here let me help you up while you put this on'' i said as i carefully helpped her to her feet. ''ouch''. ''i know baby, it hurts you just have to hold on to me for a few minutes until iam finished''. i said as she put her arms into the sleeves and i wrapped it around her skinny body and then she said ''great now lets go to the kitchen''. i took one arm and lead her to the kitchen and helpped her into the chair. ''you havent told me your name i have no idea what iam to call you''. ''oh how stupid of me, iam Rodolpho Valentino, you can call me Rudy''. ''the movie star''. she said moving her head. ''if your talking bout the married virgin, then yes iam guilty as charged''. ''i see then rudy, i much prefer that better then calling you master''. ''why would you call me master'' i asked as i lit my pipe. ''well that's what jason made me call him''. she said as i poured her a fresh cup of tea. ''well iam not this jason you speak of, and i will never hurt you i promise''. i said as i took her hand and said ''their really soft''. ''thank you''. just as we were enjoying a tender moment the back door swung open and Jean came charging in. ''WHO IS SHE'' Jean shouted as Valeria leaned to her left and i pulled jean out of the room. ''who the hell is she, i demand to know right now''. she shouted as she lit a cigarette. ''jean well its nice to see you again tell me how did you hear bout this girl and what do you care you made your intentions clear that night''. i replied as she started punching me and pulling hair. ''you asked for a divorce cos you said you made a terrible mistake so i have signed the papers and youre free now so get out''. she struck me again as i was about too strike at her i heard valeria say. ''rudy dont, its not worth it. come on now'' she said as she stood in between us. Jean looked at her for a moment, then back at me. and said ''i hope you have fun with your little girl''. she said pushing Valeria out of the way as she slammed the front door. ''are you alright Valeria''. she nodded as she still looked at the door. ''that was my soon to be exwife'', ''i heard you both arguing the other night on the telephone''. she said as i took her hand and helpped her to the couch. ''well it dosent matter now, its up to my lawyer''. i said as i carefully sat down beside her. ''rudy you shouldnt have tried to strike her, its not really worth your time and effort thats what she wants for you to hurt her so she can damage you, remember my words next time she approaches''. i took them into consideration as she looked around the room, and said ''why are the floors black ive never seen a house with black floors''. ''there like this in this area, ive been told''. ''come on hon iam really tired lets take a nap''. i said as i picked her up off the couch and carried her back to the bedroom, carefully laying her on the bed. i undressed and went around the room hanging up my clothes and putting them into the closet, when i layed in bed next to her, i said ''here put the newspaper away were taking nap right now ok''. i kissed her on the lips and put my arm and leg over her and she took a deep breath. a few hours later i was awkened by the phone ringing. then james came in and said ''sir there a call for you, its the doctor''. ''ill be right there james''. i said slowing disengaging myself from Valeria who was still asleep. i went to the door and put on my dressing gown, then went to the phone. ''doctor, hello whats going on''. ''how is she doing''. ''shes fine, no complaints''. ''can you blame here shes with the next biggest star''. ''oh get off it u, shes just fine we sat outside for a little while and we drank some tea and we just had a nap''. i replied as i reached into the cigarette box and lit a cigarette. ''already took her to bed did you, well shes one lucky girl, i shall stop by tommorow on my way to town to change the bandages, until then i bid you adieu''. i laughed and said ''ciao''. then hung up the phone. i sat in the parlor for a few minutes smoking thinking bout what the doctor had said when all of a sudden i herd a crash in the bedroom. i ran into the bedroom to see Valeria, on the floor. ''oh my god, are you alright, here let me help you'' i said gently picking her up and putting her back into the bed. ''that was the doctor hon, hell be stopping by tommrow to check on your progress, and redress the bandages''. she moaned as i helped her get out of bed and go into the parlor. i sat her down on the couch and said ''well iam going to be starting my new movie next week and i want you to come with me so we have to think of something, because i dont want to loose you''. ''well i can go by my real name now, its margarita, my mom when i was with her called me Grita''. ''well i like it but ill call you angel, where together, and if i may ask where is your mother''. ''well i believe she is still is durango, with my brothers and sisters there all way younger then me, Jason came to her and said he wanted to take me to the americas for schooling and education but it turns out that wasnt the case''. she said putting her head down and folding her trembling hand into her lap. ''hey you dont ever have to worry bout him again, i will take care of everything and i will find your mother too if you want''. ''no i dont think she is well, and i dont want you to bother her if she isnt well''. ''well can i launch and inquiry as to how both your mom and dad are doing please''. ''ok, ill give you the information and let you handle all the details, please dont tell them where i am or what has happened iam afraid''. ''i wont'' i said loving squeezing her hand as i went to the phone. she sat on the couch watching me until i finished on the phone to my lawyer. ''ok its all arranged he'll have some news for us as soon as possible, hey are you hungry''. ''no not really, iam very thurty though and it very smokey in here can you open a window''. i laughed at her modesty and went to the window i opened it as the phone rang again. ''hello, yes who is this'' i said as i heard a harsh brash voice on the telephone. it was an olderman. ''this is Victor Palmero, iam calling bout Margarita''. ''yes sir, what of it''. i said in a calice voice. ''i am her grandfather and i've just called to inform you her mother emilina is dead, she died 4 years ago after margarita went missing in america, her father has disappered and her siblings are now left alone in her house in durango, iam ill sir and can no longer care for these children, if you know or may know where she is sir, i pray tell her to please come and get them they all miss her so much and durango in the summer is no place for children left alone thank you'' the man said as he hung up. ''who was that'' Valeria asked as i said ''umm well i dont know how to say this but that was your grand father i guess, he informed me your mother died after you left and your father has disappered and your siblings are alone in durango''. ''what, no i cant be i mean you just launched and inquiry not 20 minutes ago''. ''i know, but what if it was we have to examine this''. ''no i refuse to believe it, can you go into the kitchen now and get me a cool drink'' she said eeping her eyes adverted and her head down. ''please''. she said her voice shaky as i obeyed and went into the kitchen. as i poured her a cup of tea, i heard her whimper and hiccup as she cried. until i re entered the room she wiped away her tears and took the cup with a trembling hand. ''mi anjelita, no lordes''. i said in my perfect spanish to which she replied '' iam through shedding tears for them, so how long will this movie take to finish and whats it called''. she said perking up and sitting up straight. ''eyes of youth, and it good script but then again i think everything is good, i only get like 10 minutes of screen time and ill be shooting for 2 weeks''. so we can be together on the set and by then you maybe walking again and youll maybe even able to sit up for longer periods''. i said stroking her hand as it rested idily on my thigh. ''you have such soft pretty hands'. i said kissing it gently as it was still trembling in my palm. ''don't worry your gentle head my angel i'll take care of you i promise'' ''you dont have to, if you dont want to''. she said as i leaned closer and put my arms around her. ''i will i want to''. i said as i squeezed her tightly. ''you want to help me rehearse my lines and facial expressions for the film''. i asked as i went to the devan and opened the drawer to pull out the script. ''ok where do you want to start''. i said as i gave her the pen and she said ''when ever your ready''. we rehearsed for hours and hours laughing and carrying on, ''that is so funny the expression you just had do it again''. she said laughing hard as i flexed and made funny faces at her. ''ok iam tired now lets call it a night'' i said as she put the script down on the couch. and gave me her hand, i took it and carefully helped her into the bedroom. i took off her blue kimono and hung it back up in the closet to which she replied in the closet should be a brown skirt, and a blackish button down blouse can you take that out for tommorow. ''i had that sent down for cleaning but you have other dresses and suits in here to wear''. ''i ll look later then''. she said as i undressed and hung up all of my clothes. i helpped her lay back and turned off the light as i got in bed next to her, i put my arm and leg over her, she rested her hand on my arm and closed her eyes. it was during the night i heard her crying and mumbling in spanish, crying for her mother and father. i squeezed r tighter as she cried harder. then she took a breath and went silent. when i didnt hear her after an hour, i leaned up to see her sound asleep. the next day rose with the sunshine peeping in through the blinds, i stirred as the clock read 8:30 am. ''anjelita'' i said as i disentwined myself from her. her head was turned in the direction of the sunlight and i quickly grabbed my camera and took a picture of her sleeping, it would be the first of very many pictures i took of Valeria. the click of the camera jolted her, as her eyes fluttered open. she lifted her head to look around. ''you're linda''. i said my accent comming through full on. ''yes rudy iam alright, when is the doc getting here''. i looked at my watch on my left wrist and said, ''in a few more minutes hon, then i though we'd get dressed and go for a ride into town''. the doctor walked in just as i helped her sit on the edge of the bed. after he cleaned her wounds and re did the bandages she had been crying in pain. ''oh angel i know it hurts''. i said as i sat beside her. i helped her dress quickly as we carefully walked out of the house to the car. it was a small car and i really didnt like it but it fitted for the moment. we took a drive into and saw the birth of a nation at the nickelodeon. then we went to the market and just looked around for awhile. finally 2 weeks had past since the accident and i was now on the set of my new film and Valeria was a little more mobile, walking about with the help of a cane. she sat on the speaker eating lemmon drops as she watched me carefully film my scenes. she had been talking to the camera man, and grips when i looked back at her again and the director yelled cut. ''hey how are you feeling'' i said as i walked back over to her and took her hand in mine and kissed it. ''better now that you're here, almost done then''. she asked as i kissed her lips and said ''i don't know yet ill be told in a few moments''. i said as the director came over and said ''that was great, you're gonna be a big star i just know it, there is someone here i would like for you to meet, its ms. june mathis, the screen writter shes is intrested in you go over and say hello''. ''come on Anjelita''. i said as she carefully slipped over the speaker and took my hand. june mathis was lovely she gave me a script for a film called the 4 horsemen of the apocolypse. we read over it that night and i decided i would do, it but it wouldnt start filming until the next year which was fine by me. gave me plenty of time to be with my angel and do small projects on the side. after about a month the badages were finally off, and we took a trip to texas for the rodeo. we had a lot of fun then when we arrived back to my apartment. we took a nap. ''iam so glad to be back''. ''me too, angel oh lets take a nap''. i said as i brought in the luggage and left it by the door, because i got caught up in the heat of the moment. i took Valeria in my arms and kissed her pretty pink lips. ''ohh, whats are you playing at'' she said in low sultry tone. ''with you i hope, its high time we make this offical''. i said as i pushed her against the wall and picked up her leg. ''bedroom''. she said as i kissed her and started unbuttoning her blouse. ''you want it you're gonna have to ccatch my first'' she said breaking out of my arms and running toward the kitchen. i smiled and gave chase. i heard her gigling as she ran into the bathroom, i cut around into the bed room and snuk up behind her and picked her up in my arms. ''oh please please help me, somebody iam about to be ravaged by the man'' she screamed in a nasaly tone. i threw her onto the bed with her laughing hysterically as i gently climbed in next to her. i ripped off her blouse as we kissed and our eyes met. i kissed her several times on the lips then bit at the nape of her neck. she scratched at my back as i ripped off her skirt, then roughly pulled off her panties. ''yeah'' she said as she arched her back and i started to undress. our eyes met as i undressed infront of her, she sat up and helped me undo my belt. she unzipped my trousers and i carefully unsnapped the suspenders. i then unbuttoned my shirt and took off my shoes and socks til i want in my shorts and tank top. i got back on the bed as Valeria took off my tank and i took her in my arms and layed her back on the bed and said ''don't move, until iam done undressing''. she obeyed an watched as i took off my shorts. and got back on the bed with her, this time i carefully layed on top of her as we kissed and whispered ''you've been so naughty and mouthy today i think you need a good thrashing''. ''really then, and i suppose your the man to give it to me then'' she said as i gently spanked her. ''well then'' she said as i leaned up. ''catch me''. she ran to the door as i grabbed her arm and swung her around into my arms where i held her tightly. then i slammed her back onto the bed with her just laughing hard as i was started to get annoyed while she was moving around, i gave a hard thrust and was inside of her. she opened her mouth wide as i forced all of myself completly inside of her and gave another hard thrust. ''ooohh god, that''. ''you like this, right nice and rough''. i said getting in her face and kissing her roughly. she tried to push me off her and i said ''don't move, control yourself''. giving another hard thrust i bit her neck drawing blood. she took a deep breath in as i thrust harder and grabbed the head bored. i looked into her eyes and say them slowly start to glaze over. i climaxed quickly, she was so tight. i rolled over on the bed next to her. ''next time please dont fight, i want to be gentle''. i said to her as she said gasping for air. ''i wont, iam sorry i didnt know hon, ill be submissive'' she said as i kissed her passionately on the forhead. ''we will have to play a little more, to see what we both like, and dont like and find different positions to be more gentler''. i said pulling her closer to me and covering her eyes with my hand and she moved it and ''stop that''. i kissed her again as her mouth was open. i then lit a cigarette and handed it to her then lit another for me. we layed in bed for hours in each others arms whispering and carresing. then i had to bring us back to reality for the moment and said ''didnt you tell me you have a birthday comming up''. ''yes don't remind me'' she said burrying her head in my chest. ''look at me, come on now tell me what you want for your birthday''. ''a puppy or a kitten, i never had a pet before and i really want one''. ''well alright a puppy it is then'' i said taking a breath as i replied. ''we will go and look at some at the breeders this week yes''. i said as she nodded unsure of what to say. in the weeks leading up to her birthday i could see she was becomming sadder and pale. then i announced ''were going on a little trip just the 2 of us''. i said the week before as we had dinner in the kitchen as she was looking through the news paper. ''anything new in the news paper''. ''yes the mexican war has begun and it's right in my homeland of durango''. ''really let me see that''. i said as she moved the newspaper closer to me, she was sitting right next to me. ''oh my god, look my grandfather was one of the first men killed''. she read. ''victor palmero was killed in gun battle trying to protect his grand children joaquin age 2, lola 3, and Vilolet 4, his grand son antonio had been also killed when he step in a rabbit trap earlier this year''. she said as she sat back in her chair and started to cry. ''its true''. she said as i took her up in my arms, ''iam so sorry my love, we can go there and get your siblings if you want''. ''can we go please''. she said as she put her arms around my neck. ''yes we can go, my love please don't cry as long as you're with me you'll never have to cry my angel i promise''. i said as i gave her my handkercheif. she dried her tears and i kissed her passionately. ''gee kid its hot lets go to bed''. i said as i took her up in my arms and carried her back to our bedroom (Valeria is really light and i love picking her up in my arms thats why iam always holding her). i carefully layed her on the bed, she was shaking. i kissed her forhead as i held her tightly in my arms, i noticed the clock said 10:30 pm when i fell asleep. i awoke a few hours later a 3:45pm when i heard something shatter in the bathroom. i looked over and valeria wasnt in bed next to me. i got out of bed and knocked on the door and asked ''Darling are you alright''. then i opened the door to see her sitting on the floor, i sat beside her as she whispered ''iam so worried bout my brother and sisters''. she said as i replied,'' i know you are, we will be going to durango the week of your birthday, and we shall inquire bout them then now come on back to sleep you need your rest if your going to go to the set with me tommorow''. i said carressing her hair and gently rubbing her back. i helped her back to her feet and said ''dont touch the glass ill clean it up ok''. i swept up the glass and put it in the rubbish bin then i turned out the light in the bathroom and got back into bed next to my angel, i put my arm and leg around her and closed my eyes. when i woke up the next morning Valeria was outside my window in the garden picking wildflowers and daisy's. she waved at me grinning as i waved back at her and blew kisses to her through the window. she pressed her face to the window and i did the same and we kissed the glass laughing. ''oye come in now''. i said signaling her inside. she nodded ''i cant the door is locked, i tried to open it but i cant find the key''. she said as i said ''oh man, i'll come round to open it''. when i went to unlock and open the door, Valeria was dragging in a large box she said ''this just came for you i think'' she said as she put the box in the foyer. ''open it, i cant wait to see what it is''. she said as i said ''now wait a minute i didnt order anything and i'm not opening it''. ''what were you doing outside anyways''. ''oh i met the neighbors they needed to borrow a cup of sugar''. she said as she put the flowers in a small blue vase embossed with flowers. ''ok then, are you already packed because we have a few minutes before we leave for the train station'' ''yes i am already done packing, i shall go and check and make sure there is nothing i have forgotten.'' 15 minutes when she returned she brought her suit case out and put it by the front door. ''i am so scared, i dont know what is going to happen''. she said as i took a kitchen knife and opened the package it was from my sister Maria, she sent some lovely things from Itially, a lamp, some sweeties, clothing and a hat. ''oh nice''. valeria said as i put on the vest and hat. i smiled and said ''are you ready angel, the car is here''. ''yes are you''. i took all the suitcases to the awaiting car and put them in the boot. when we arrived to the train station. it was complete caos, i held Valeria close to me as i gave the man our tickets and luggage. ''your parcel has arrived and is waiting for you in your suit''. he said as i helpped Valeria onto the train. ''your luggage will be up in a few minutes'' he said as he walked down the corridor into our compartment. i opened the door and Valeria went straight in, i then shut the door and took off my hat and jacket and layed it on the seat next to me. then the conductor came in with our luggage and small parcel that had just arrived, we put the luggage in the top cubby as he left. ''oh its here''. i said as i handed the little box to Valeria. ''go on then open it''. i said as she took off the bow and the lid off the box. she then sat it in her lap when all of a sudden a tiny little black nose came out of the end of the box. ''oh rudy'' she said taking the tiny white teacup chihuahua out of the box. she looked between it legs and said ''shes such a pretty girl''. the little puppy licked her face and squeeked in delight. ''do you like her, it's just what you wanted a small puppy you can carry around and play with''. ''she's lovely'' she said kissing the puppy's nose when she said ''i think i'll call her poppit''. she said as she kissed and bit at the tiny puppy. they played for hours until we had to go to sleep. we went to our berth on the train when Valeria asked ''how long does it take to get to mexico by train anyhow''. ''4 days''. ''oh dear''. i said as we layed together in the bunk, the next few days on the train were uneventful. sat around by the window smoking, drinking, reading the news paper til we finally pulled into the train station in durango. it looked so different to me, and i had only been gone for 4 years. we rented a car, and drove through the hillside to the country. let me explain how it works. well we drive down the paved road, then we get of that and drive on gravel then you get off that and drive down the dirt path. as we got closer, to the house it look deserted, empty, the lawn hadent been mowed, there was dust on the screen, the trees were over grown. we pulled in and i hesitated for a moment, until i saw a little girl appear in the doorway. Valeria jumped nearly out of her skin as we pulled up i took her hand and said ''wait a minute''. ''let me go'' she said as she struggled with the door handle, finally she pulled it outward, she ran up the stairs and kneeled in front of the little girl. i got out of the car and waited until she gave me word to come forward. she looked at the little girl up and down, trying to reconize her little face. ''Grita, is that you'' i heard the little girl say. ''yes, Violet it is me, are you alright''. she said taking the little girl in her arms and kneeling before her placing a gentle hand her the little girls head. ''no, iam not alright antonio died this past feb. so did daddy and mama''. the little girl said as she looked back at me and said ''who is that''. ''Vi, that is my friend Rudy, we've come to see you''. she said signaling me forward. i came up the dusty stair case right behind Valeria, i too knelt before the little girl. ''tell me Vi were is lola and joaquin''. she put a finger to her mouth and said ''were all inside its so hot, we have to stay cool and drink a lot of water''. ''WHAT'' Valeria said as she rose and took her little sister by the hand. i followed suit and got to my feet we both walked into the house to see 2 more small children laying on the floor in a really dirty disgusting blanket. ''oh my god, how long has it been like this''. she asked kneeling down to examine the little boy. ''since papi went away and they killed him''. Violet said as the little boy moaned when Valeria prodded him to wake up. ''Vi, you stay here iam going to look around'' she said as i too heard something or someone in the next room. she went to the oak cabinet and quickly reached behind it, pulling out the shot gun, violet moved forward when Valeria said ''shhhhh stay right there don't move''. she moved into the next room carefully, as i gathered the children to get them outside, if someone was in the house i didnt want them to get hurt or see anything. Valeria moved carefully around the kitchen where she had heard the rustling, she peeked around the corner, where she had heard footsteps, then she carefully stepped back around the corner. ''I am telling you man, there are 3 small children in this house, it's so small and deserted we can camp here and then take the children with us, then when we get out of here i say ditch the children in the woods and tie them up''. '' no john i have a better idea, i say we kill them then have a large fiesta, i say kill em all they'll be better off''. he said as he started going through the cupboards. Valeria closed her eyes and took a deep breath and again peeked at the a-wol soliders. she then reared around and walked into the kitchen. ''you have 3 seconds to get your grimy hands off my cupboard''. she said carefully and shot the first round. the 2 men scrambled as she cocked the rifle again and aimed. ''no get out of my house, or i swear on your soon to be tombstones i will shoot without a second thought''. both men looked at her as she shot again, this time hitting *john* in the arm. ''she shot me, she fucking shot me'' *john* said as the other man lunged forward, at me. he managed to push me backward. and we started a massive fight for the rifle. it was still cocked when i shot again this time, it hit this man right in his face shooting upward. i scrambed to my feet as *john* took off through the front door. i cocked the rifle as he turned around and cocked his pistol. ''put it down now'' i screamed as we both shot at the same time. *john* fell backwards down the front stairs. as i walked out of the house. i took the rifile with me as i ran to the car. ''are you alright''. ''Rudolph Valentino, i just shot two awol soliders of course iam alright , lets go drive drive''. i said as i grabbed joaquin and we all piled into the car and drove off in haste. when we arrived back at the hotel, i hid the gun under the seat for the moment until i could think of a better place to put it, then i took joaquin inside. we played it off, to be casual and went upstairs, it was then i felt the pain and blood from having just been shot. not to scare the kids or anyone, i went into the bathroom, and ran the cold water in the tub and the sink. then i let out a loud scream. i sank to the floor as i reached for the towel. it was now complete caos, the kids were all crying Rudy was rapping on the door, ''Valeria are you alright let me in''. ''no Rudy, take care of the kids for a moment, until iam through in here'' i said trying not to let the pain show in my voice. a few minutes later i emerged from the bathroom, and said ''well now that were all aquainted, i would like to go home now''. so my wish was law, so we took the train for 4 more days with 3 tired hungry, screaming children that were my siblings. it was half past 10pm when we got back to the apartment. all the kids wanted to sleep on the floor in the living room, i didnt argue, i was in so much pain and so nauseated i was like. ''whatever you want''. finally rudy and i were alone. ''i know you were shot, now let me see the wound it might be infected''. he said as i litterally collapsed into his arms. he carefully placed me on the bed, and unbuttoned my blouse. i felt well enough to get back to my feet and said ''do we have a shovel''. ''i think so why''. ''cos iam going to burry the rifile, wipe it down first i dont want it linked back to me''. i said as i went to the pantry were all the tools and yard supply's were kept. i finally found the shovel all the way in the back, i dragged it out and through the back door. i walked 49 paces to the south to a deserted part of the city. ''here is good''. i said as Rudy followed. ''you have to promise me, you wont tell anyone what we did,ok''. i said as i started to dig. ''i wont, i swear''. ''great, oh by the way iam sorry for snapping back there but i was still in shock''. ''i am too, you dont have to apoligize to me''. he said as we both looked at each other. ''ok i think this is deep enough, help me out of this ditch''. i said as he gave me a hand and pulled me up. we wrapped the rifile in the dirty disgusting sheet, that smelled like a wet dog, and dropped it in the ditch, i start shoveling the dirt back in the area quickly. then we walked back to the apartment, when i said ''now you can ring for the doctor''. he nodded as we opened the back porch door. my little sisters were standing there just staring at me. ''what are we going to do now'' she asked as i knelt before them. ''well you both are supposed to be asleep, go on now scatter''. i said as they ran back to the living room. the doctor arrived at 1 am that night, the three of us alone in the back bedroom. ''what happened''. he asked as we both looked at each then rudy said ''a hunting accident''. ''i see, well ms. your very lucky i can get the bullit and close the wound''. he said as he began, i layed back and grabbed the headbord and try not to scream it didnt really hurt, but when he pulled the bullet out i really wanted to punch him, the stitiches only took bout 10 minutes. ''we had a long week didnt we kitten''. Rudy said to me as he put his arm around me. ''hey you never told me how old you were today''. he asked as i replied ''old enough to know better''. ''fair enough'' he said as he then said ''what are we going to do tommrow''. she giggled and said ''congraulation's daddy it 2 girls and a boy''. we both laughed hard and fell asleep. The next morning we were awaken at 12pm by violet who came into the bedroom, ''Grita, come on wake up we've been awake for hours''. she said as i woke up first and gently shook Valeria. she stirred then opened her eyes. ''hey Vi, are you alright''. she said as she took the little girls hand. ''listen Vi, let us get dressed and will be out in a few minutes ok''. she said as i got out of bed first. Violet ran out of the room, as i went to the closet and started getting dressed. ''hey listen darling Rudy, you're going to have to stay here with the kids for a while i got to see a man bout some children''. ''what man''. ''its alright, they'll be fine i just have to go to town for bout 2 hours''. she said as she fumbled in the closet for a minute until she found what she was looking for. i saw her put it in her pocket, as i asked ''are you going to drive there''. ''nope, it's just a hop skip and jump away from here, ill be back dont worry k''. she said patting me on the back as she slipped out of the room. Valeria walked out of the house after she told the children to get aquiainted with rudy and she would be back in bout 2 hours. she walked down the path, into the main part of the city. while in the city she walked into the Sears&roebuck company, she looked around at the shelves when an older woman came over and said ''hello miss may i help you''. ''yes children's clothing''. she said as the little plump old lady lead her to the back of the store. well for my brothers and sisters, oh, i have there measurements''. she said handing the lady the paper and said ''why dont you show me a selection please''. Valeria said as she sat down on the small plush bench near the stairs. once Valeria finished she pulled out her small pocket watch and said ''oh my time has flown''. she gave the woman her money and patiently waited for her change, and recipt. she took her bags and left quickly. as walked up the path as all the children were waiting and waving in the window. ''she is home'' rudy said as she walked through the door, and said ''all right kiddies form a line my next order of bussiness, is to burn all those clothes and give each one of you a good bath, rudy ill take the girls and you take joaquin and will both give them a good bath and when you all are finished you can fight over these new clothes''. i said taking my little sisters hand and taking her to the bathroom. ''i never ever want to see these clothes again, vi''. i said kissing her dirty face as i opened the taps. i lossened her hair from its cue and as i ran my fingers through it i noticed it was matted. ''violet how long has it been since you had a hair cut, or trimmed for that mattered''. ''i dont know'' she said innocently as i undressed her and moved the trash can closer to throw away and burn those old dirty clothes. ''ok now get in the bath, and ill be right back iam gonna get the scisors and see if i can fix that hair alright''. she obeyed and got into the bathtub. i went off to the kitchen to find the scisors, when i found them rudy asked ''what are you doing with the scisors''. ''iam going to trim Vi' s hair it all matted at the back and on the ends''. i said taking a look in one of the bags and pulling out a few things. ''i'll be back in a few minutes''. i said going back into the bathtub to assist my little sister. when i ws done bathing Violet and Lola, i asked Rudy if he wanted some help with joaquin after all he was only bout 18 months and really scared. ''i got it, but you can come and check on us in a few minutes ok darling''. he said kissing my forhead as i moved out of the way. just then i heard a knock on the door, a message boy stood in front of the door. ''Valeria Moreno''. he asked as i replied, ''maybe it depends on what you want''. '' i have a letter for you''. he said as i signed his slip and put the letter in my pocket. i didnt even remember it was there until later on that day when we were having dinner, and rudy was reading his new script. for the adventuress. ''how many movie's are you doing this year''. i asked as i helped joaquin into his chair. ''seven'' he said casually as i looked shocked, ''this one is number 5''. ''oh i see, and why so many''. ''well darling i need the money''. he said looking at me sternly as i back down and mumbled ''ok''. ''oh hey i got a letter this afternoone in the mail, and i almost forgot about it''. i said as i used a small pair or cuticle cutters to open it. ''what does it say''. ''Margarita, Thats my real name''. she said as she kept reading. ''you do not know me, but i know you my dear, i am Jose Sanchez an attorney, it took me so long to find you but now that i have, i would have contacted you sooner but i wasnt exactly sure of the adress, the reason i am contacting you is because i was your parents attorney and i have some personal affects and things they wanted you to have, so when you get this letter i will have already arrived in Los angless and am staying at the amabasador hotel,please come by my suite, or call me and let me know when you are comming''. ''ohh intresting''. she said as she stoped reading aloud and read to herself p.s Rodolpho Valentine is really handsome catch i hope your happy. Valeria smiled and put the letter back in its envelope, then put it back in her pocket. ''well kids it looks like iam going to see a man bout a few items of mama and papi'' she said as rudy just took in her happiness, which would be short lived in the few weeks comming. Valeria quickly sent a cable back to mr. sanches informing him of her visit on the 3rd of july, informing him she would arrive alone as to not upset the children. the very next day my precious angel Valeria had to enroll the children in a day nursery cos of the 2 of us having to work. right now was a critical time. ''i know violet but you have to go, its only for a few hours and i will come and pick you three up and then will go to the studio''. she said brushing her sisters hair and dressing her. this was the day her life would change forever, see today Valeria would encounter Jean Acker, while she is with rudy at the studio. she walked her brother and sister to the day nursery right up the street, from our apartment then took a bus to join rudy at the studio, he was waiting for her at the gate, and was talking to the doorman who were both laughing. when she strode up the path. ''good day to you miss''. he said as rudy took her hand and lead inside. ''are we finally ready to go here''. the director yelled as rudy sat me in his little chair. as he was filming i was tapped on the shoulder by a young woman, who whispered ''did you arrive with rudy, i wanted to chat with you if i may''. i nodded and looked back to see rudy doing his facial expressions for the camera. i went with the woman whom i thought looked familar but i couldnt place her. ''iam sorry to rush you but can you make this quick i have an apointment right down the street here''. i said as the girl said ''well can i walk with you then and we could talk''. ''i guess that would be ok then''. ''well miss let me introduce myself i am jean acker''. i looked at her for a moment not quite sure of were i heard this name before. ''hello, iam Grita''. she replied as the 2 shook hands. ''grita i thought you were''. ''no that was a name given to me, not my real name''. she replied as they walked. ''so jean, umm what did you want to talk about'' she said raising and eye brow and putting her hands in her pocket. ''well, i dont know if you know this grita, iam Mrs. Rudolph Valentino, well for now until the divorce is final, but i just wanted to know if he told you why we broke up that day''. ''no, he hasent actually he did tell me things just didnt work out and he said you said it was all a huge mistake and he tried calling you and sending you a letter to no avail''. ''well sweetie''. she said in a sarcastic tone, ''let me fill you in, only minutes before he met you, he had confided to me''. ''look jean if its evil your bout to dish i really dont want none, and if iam in the way at all please by all means i can find accomitations else where. ''no your not in the way and iam not spreading evil but i thought you should know as its vital to your health and well being''. she said as she took my forarm and said ''he had confided in me, that he had the clap''. the damage was done Valeria hit the brick wall. ''is this true, because if it isnt i will no longer listen to your gossip''. ''ask him yourself, then get tested''. she said as she then let her go and walked off back in the direction of the studio Valeria was furious, when she walked up to the suite of mr. Sanchez.''oh ms. Moreno please do come in'' he said as she walked in and sat in the over stuffed next to the window. ''well iam so glad you could make it, did you have trouble finding it''. ''oh no, i knew it was here the hole time''. she said as he handed her a cup of coffe. she put it on the coffe table next to her and said ''why am i here please just give it to me gently''. ''well i have somethings and a cheque for you''. ''a cheque'' Valeria said as she rose to her feet. ''yes a check for 30,000 and the villita the house in calabasa's''. ''they didnt have a house there and where did all this money come from''. ''your grandfather miss''. at the sound of this this infuriated her even more, when she was with her parents the lived as poor spanish imigrants from spain, they lived in a deserted run down house on the outskirts of town. ''i also have you fathers guitar and your mothers possestions''. he said as Valeria replied, ''well i shall take it all then, but my mothers, things and the stuff my father and grand father left me in the villita. she said as he handed her the cheque. ''thank you so much, iam sorry for any inconvience this may have caused''. ''not a problem miss, i hope your well though and good luck to you''. he said as Valeria walked out of the room and down the long coridor to the elevator. once back in the lobby she put the cheque in her beaded bag and set off back to the studio. the bus just arrived as she got on and gave the man her 3 cents. once back at the studio rudy was again waiting for her at the gate. she stopped on her way there as rudy watched for a moment she picked up a large stone, as she aproached him he greeted her gently with ''my angel is back''. ''your pure yellow you asshole'', she screamed as she through the stone at him. ''hey what was that for'' he said grabbing her forarm to steady her flailing. ''because you are a dirty liar and a great big phony, you lied to me, bout something so personal, how could you i mean didnt you think i would find out, i always find out'' she said punching him in the chest and screaming in the loudest possible tone she could muster. ''can we please talk about this inside, everyone is staring''. he said as he dragged her forward. ''good let everyone know what a pretender you are let everyone know your true intensions''. Valeria said as she kicked and screamed and kicked the dirt and gravel making a huge scene. ''i hate you, i never want to see you ever again''. she said as the security guard was now pulling her away. she got loose fron his grip and went forward again and said ''stay the hell away from me and my siblings or i swear ill shoot you too''. '' let go of me, i can walk out''. she said as she stormed off. Rudy went after her. ''Where are you going''. i asked as i got closer to her. she pushed me away and said ''the bank''. ''why''. ''get lost, playboy i don't need you or your kind youre just like that pervert jason, no you go, go on back to your perfect little life and your little woman jean''. she spat venom at this point she was so infuriated she couldnt see straight.she went to the bank, it was a really big bank one like she had never seen before, she went to a man at a desk and said ''i would like to open an account please''. ''checking or savings''. the man asked as he didnt look at her. ''checking, please'' Valeria said as she took a deep breath the man behind the desk looked at her. ''well lets see your money then''. she took the check from her beaded bag and handed it to the man. the man looked at the check then back at her. ''so you're Margarita Moreno, oh we've been expecting you''. ''Mac, Mac come quickly its miss moreno''. the man from behind the desk yelled. ''sir can you please be quiet, i don't want anyone to know iam here''. she said carefully as the elderman came over to her. ''we've been waiting for you miss, please take a walk with me to my office''. the man said as he opened the door for her. ''please Grita sit down''. she obeyed as the man went to his desk and said ''your laywer mr. sanchez is a good friend of mine and told me you would be comming and to have everything ready''. he gave her the nessicary paper work and a custom made fountain pen, ''here you go miss read over all the paperwork, for the account and your house and then sign on the dotted line''. he said as she began reading it over, the intrest rates. the mortgage on the house it stated was only paid for at the time of death she didnt have to pay a dime it was hers free, and clear including the land it sat on and its suroundings, then she read on bout the checking account and the 10%intrest rate. ''alright everything looks sufficant to my liking, where do i sign'' she said as the man unscrewed the pen cap and handed it to her right there there and there''. he said as she obeyed and said ''Mac, i shall be in touch and iam keeping this pen, oh one more thing this little deal and check is between the three of us you here me or so help me, i know where to burry the body''. she said as she smiled when he said ''well iam on my way out may i drop you somewhere''. ''no sir, i can walk again and i plan to take advantage''. she said as she walked out of his office, and down the street for 4 blocks to the day nursery. ''hey kiddies, were you waitinging long''. she asked as they walked to the bus stop, holding hands. ''no Grita, only 84,000 hours''. Replied violet who was still mad she had to go to day nursery anyways. ''i know, but hey were going to a big new house, in the country, one where we wont ever have to worry about a thing ever again''. she said as they walked to the bench at the bus stop. ''is rudy comming grite'' ''no fraid not my dear, he dosent know, so anyways i suppose well have to get a few things''. she said as they all boreded the bus. when they arrived to the house, they saw all the servents gathered outside with mr sanchez awaiting there arrival. ''miss moreno, welcome we just got your message this is willetta and miriah''. he said she she shook there hands and said ''i just know will be the best of friends, and i will never scowl at you i promise'' she said as mr. sanchez took his leave. they all went inside the large house and she couldnt believe her eyes, this was a super huge paris palace. they were royality, ''oh my lord''. she said crossing herself as she looked around the house at all the lovely spanish style house, there was even mexican tile on the floor. ''well then lets have us some dinner, then we can pick out a room i guess''. she said in baited breath as they were shown to the kitchen. after dinner they all went upstairs to pick a room. once they'd picked there room they all came to join Valeria in the master bedroom where they all fell asleep together. today wasnt so bad after all, she lost a love but gained a new one she thought as she then called for miriah. ''yes misstress''. the young coloured girl asked, ''umm will you ring for a doctor, and one more thing, take off that ridiculous uniform and please were your regular clothing, i dont want you to be uncomfortable, and tell willetta too, you dont have to dress like that for me''. she said as miriah said ''thank you so much, misstress sleep well i shall call for the doctor and have him here in the morning''. ''goodnight''. she replied as miriah closed the door. the next morning was a saturday morning it was cool enough to have the windows open, when the doctor arrived. ''well well well, doctor it is a small world i didnt think you came out this far''. she said as she greated him in the parlor. ''well look at you my dear, oh iam so glad to see you tell me where is Rudy''. ''not here sir i know or care really''. she said as they went into a private room. ''well what can i do for you''. ''i need to be tested for a possible veneral disease, i was informed by a reliable source that our dear rudy may have the clap, and i want to know if i may have it and is it fatal, and what should i do for it''. ''calm down just a little salvarsan and mercury f you do have it''. ill just take some blood and run some special tests ok''. he said as he took of a fresh needle and took a small vile of blood and said ''there you go, ill write you a perscription and leave you with directions, but dont not fill it until you have gotten the results''. he said as Valeria replied ''would you like to stay for lunch''. ''no i cant infact iam about to see your rudy''. he said playfully nudging her. ''he's not my anything until i know for sure'' she said as she walked him out the door. while things where going well for Valeria. Rudy was in the dressing room, as he filmed Camille, he was talking to Natacha Rambova, a young Russian born dancer, she was tall and pretty but no where near as attractive as Valeria. she looked at the framed picture of her on his makeup station as he sat talking to natacha, ''her words really hurt me, i have never seen her so upset before she just went comepletly crazy''. he said as he handed her the cigarette. ''i got to go now''. he said as he took his jacket and went to the doorman just as he remembered his earlier words, ''just as miss Moreno was leaving i saw'er with jean acker''. ''oh i hadent even realized'' he had said that til now he said to himself as he went to the car. when he got back to the apartment, it was so cold and empty, all of her clothes were still in the closet, he went to the closet and took out her favorite scarf, the one she always wore in her long hair. he put it to his face, it was so soft and smelled of the citrus in her hair. he layed down on the bed clutching the multicoloured scarf to his chest. he wondered where she went, how her meeting with that attorney went, where the children were, if they were cold or tired or hungry, but mostly he missed hearing her sweet angelic voice. the last time he heard it it went up a few inches in town and was a smouldering sound not the gentle soft nasaly voice he was used to. she closed his eyes for a moment trying to imagine she was propped up next to him asking him how is day went or, what was new, or anything at all. he kept his eyes closed trying to remember how cheerful the day before had been, when they had all come in early and then sat around telling jokes and just laughing. he fell asleep soon after. 3 days later the doctor arrived on the front porch of villita. ''hey doc, please do come in''. he obeyed and came inside the house, valeria led him to a private room just next to the stairs. ''miss you do not have it, iam happy to report''. ''well thank you so much, and iam sure you understand my concern, tell me though doctor between the 2 of us was i right to worry''. ''yes, my dear you were right, he did have a while back but had it for a while at that point i did what i could with mercury and salversan but he still has poor eyesight due to it''. she smiled at the doctor, as she had barely noticed it she thought he did that to make her swoon. ''let me walk you out''. she said as the doctor turned to walk out the door. ''well thank you so much doctor for everything''. she said as she opened the car door for him. he tipped his hat to her as this gave her an idea. she ran back inside the house to what she guessed was her grandfathers room, she took out his old waist coat, jacket, and his hat. she put the had on her head and the vest, then hurried down the stairs and out of the house. the door man reconized her right away as she winked at him. he let her through the gate and into the studio. Valeria walked in the dressing room, she sat in the chair with her head down when she heard him aproaching, a female entered the room first then he did. ''hey whose is that boy''. the woman said as Rudy came over to me and said '' very charming boy'' he said as i picked up my head so he could see my face and said ''a wise man once said, to err is human but to forgive is divine, Can you find it in your heart to forgive the terrible things i have said to you''. he knelt before me and said ''i forgive you, but you really hurt me, and i think i need to spank you hard for that''. he said as he took off the hat and putt it on the floor next to my feet. ''are you alright, my precious'' he said looking into my eyes as we were interupted when the tall female clear her throat. ''oh natacha i want you to meet my angel, valeria''. i held out my hand for her to shake, but instead she kissed it and said ''i've never met an angel before''. i smiled and said ''well heaven is a place on earth''. i replied as rudy said ''she is designing all the costumes and art sets for camile''. ''oh wow, how exciting''. i said as she looked me up and down and said ''your really slender''. ''think so''. i said looking down at my slouching body. ''i would like to take some pictures of you both in various costumes and poses, Valeria i really like the way the light hits you, you look radiant''. natacha said as she sized Valeria up. ''come on now, valeria lets go home'' he said as he took my arm and led me out to the car. natacha watched as we drove off. Rudy drove very fast in i had to grasp the seat. ''please be careful, god i hate the automobile''. she said to me as i turned the corner and narrowly missed the telephone pole. once we got back to the apartment and went inside. we both went to the bedroom. we kissed and i touched her face, and whispered in her ear as we sat down together in the chair next to the window, i made her sit in my lap. ''where are the children''. ''day nursery'' she said blankley as we clasped hands, ''do you like natacha angel''. he asked as i said ''i dont really know her yet but iam pretty sure she's ok''. she replied as she rested her head on my shoulders. ''Grita, can i ask you a question''. ''hhmmm'' she replied as i asked ''where did you go that night''. ''well i went to the hacienda, the house my parents left me and my siblings the lawyer gave me the papers that day''. she said taking a deep breath. ''are the children there right now, and were you alone''. ''no we have 2 young coloured girls there miriah and willetta''. ''i meant you didnt go with anyone'' i asked as she picked up her head and looked at me and said ''it was only 3 days now''. ''well i took you home with me the first day''. she laughed and said ''well i should be so lucky anyways, come on we've got to go pick up the little ones at the day nursery'' she said as she rose to get out of my lap, i grabbed both of her arms and pinned them behind her back and leaned her backwards giving her a passionate kiss. ''i love you''. i said as she took my hand and said ''lets go now before i change my mind, and one more thing be careful when your driving i dont want to die in an automobile ok''. she said in her usual soft voice. that day i was to recieve another shocking blow. ''hey were are the children''. i asked the woman i had never seen before. ''Margrita Moreno''. she said as i nodded and Rudy pulled me closer. ''yes''. ''you've been served''. she said giving me a large brown envelope. ''i cant believe this''. i said reading the court injuction. ''no no no no, i knew this would happen''. she said sitting down on the curb and with her head in her hands she was crying, this was the first time i had ever seen her cry. ''i dont understand angel, what has happened''. she yanked the papers out of my hand and whispered. ''lilian''. ''who's lilian''. ''ever heard of lilian k. smith''. ''the comsemtics''. ''yes lilian k. smith is my big sister smith is her married name she married a rich louisanna laywer who thinks the world revolves are around him, anyways these papers state they've taken custody of the children and i can visit whenever i want, bitch''. she said getting up and walking away. ''where are you going my sweet''. i asked as i went after her. ''back to the apartment, i want to get back in the rattling deathtrap''. she said refering to the car. ''well i just cant leave it here, come on''. ''rudy you go ok, i am gonna walk''. i wanted to follow her in the car, but i decided to keep my distance. as i watch her turn the corner and go into a theatre. i drove off figuring she would come back in a few minutes. Valeria sat in the seat, near the middle there was a play going on. as she sat down she noticed the lead actor, they made eye contact for a moment, they were both breath taken, *she was the pretiest thing i've ever seen*. *i have never seen such a handsome man, next to my rudy*. they kept eye contact for a moment, until the spell was broken and the curtain fell. as she was leaving the theatre the the back door, she pulled down her sleeves as it was a bit chilly outside now that the sun had gone down. she looked around to see which direction to go, she decided she duck through the back alley. as she turned to leave she was pushed into a large crowd of people who were waiting to greet the actors. she tried to move, but was pretty much stuck in the middle. the door opened and the actors all came out. Valeria tried to push through the crowd, as she did this she pushed right into the charming actor she made eye contact with on the stage. ''oh hello, are you alright there''. he asked in his british accent.''. ''aha'' was all i managed to get out, in person right in front of me he was breath taking. ''i cant get out of this, crowd please help i feel like the walls are closing in on me''. he looked at me then put his strong arms around my shoulders and lead me through the crowd. once we were out of the alley and on the street, he said ''i didnt catch your name''. ''Grita, yours.'' i replied as she lit a cigarette. ''Leslie''. ''an odd name for a man, don't you think''. ''it's not so odd in london''. he said ''well, i should like to call you Les, if i may, or that is if i ever see you again''. ''thats fine, tell me grita is that short for something''. ''yes Margerita''. i said wrapping my hair in my finger as i always do when iam nervous. ''i like it and shall, call you grite''. ''ok, well if i never see you again it was nice meeting you, and thank you for helping me through that offal mess''. i said turning to walk away. ''grite''. he said as i turned to look at him. ''iam staying at the ambasador in town, come by and see me sometime i'm in 211, and i shall give you my adress, in london ok'' i nodded and said ''i will, i promise, goodbye now''. i said as i hurried off down the street and made a left on vine. i walked up the path to the apartment and knocked softly on the door. ''i am sorry iam late i just needed some time alone''. i said as he opened the door and put his arms around me. ''it's ok, how are you doing now''. ''a little better but, it wont matter much, cos iam through fighting with my sister, maybe its better this way''. i said as we both went into the bedroom. ''oh angel don't give up hope i know everything will work out, i want us to always be together i dont want to ever be seperate again''. ''ok, but when you're working i dont want to be in the way''. ''well all you have to do is sit and look pretty''. he said kissing me and i giggled and put my arms around him. the next day when we arrived at the studio, Natacha Rambova was waiting for us in the dressing room. ''hi natacha''. i said as i walked through the door first. *rudy held it open for me, then followed*. ''hello''. she said in a sarcastic voice. i sat on the couch next to her as rudy said ''natacha what are you doing here''. ''well i came to tell you both, that i want to do those photo's this weekend''. ''oh''. i said as rudy replied, ''well it's up to you angel, i'll do whatever you want''. ''umm ok, i think it will be ok''. i said as i looked over at him. ''well there you have it natacha, thank you for comming, i'll see you in a bit''. he said as she took her leave. ''did you notice the pitch and tone of her voice''. ''no angel i wasnt paying attention''. he said looking back at me as he undressed. ''i guess''. i replied as my mind drifted away to leslie, the more i thought about it, the more i saw a wedding ring on his left hand, and i dont play that game i wont be responsible for the demise of a marriage. i thought in my mind as i focused on rudy who said ''your so quiet, are you alright''. he said pouring me some water from the picher. ''thank you''. i replied as he caressed my face. ''kiss me'' he said, as he sat beside me, i obeyed and leaned forward kissing him. he put his arms around me and lay me back onto the couch. he kissed my neck and chest as i unbuttoned my blouse a little more, he was feeling me up and it felt so good, i could feel his breath on my neck and was getting really turned on. ''you didnt let me see you dress this morning'' he whispered in between kisses. i smiled knowing full well where this was going so i played along. ''wouldnt you like to see then''. i replied as i loosened my belt buckle. ''i would like to see'' he said as he pulled down my slacks and said ''oh, i like, i really really like''. i gigled as he pulled down my trousers some, the loosend his belt buckle. ''you have to be very quiet''. i said, to this he replied, ''well dont get me going, my love''. i smiled as he leaned down and kissed me again. we kissed for a few more seconds, when he whispered, ''cane you feel me, it's all for you''. ''i can'' i whispered as he entered me, ''oh god''. i said, ''no its all me baby'' he said gripping the arm rest as he maintained a slow steady pace. he looked down at me as we moved in sync together. ''are you alright my angel'' he whispered as we kissed. ''iam fine now''. i replied as he started going faster. ''ohhh, yes deeper'' i cried out as i started clawing at his back. ''what did you say to me'' he said agressivly as i replied. ''harder, be agressive''. i said roughly as he started getting faster and fast. ''oh god, thats feels so good''. i said as i clawed again at his back, ''oh god your so tight, and it feels so good angel''. he said as he was leaning upwards and thrusting harder and harder. he groaned and whispered, ''oh my beautiful angel''. ''what''. i joked agressivley as he turned me around so that i was on my knees and not facing him, her roughly grapsed my hands and pushed hard as he was tring to maintain control. ''oh god, yes more''. i cried out as he smacked my bum, and said ''hush now, its almost there''. i was spriling over the edge now when i whispered, '' iam almost there'' and scratched and clawed at him. then after a few more intense hard thrust we both climaxed together. he grabbed me around the middle and pulled me closer and we both panted and gasped for air. ''oh my god, my angel i love you'' he said as we again kissed and got dressed after we cleaned each other off. ''i love you too''. i said as he took my face in his hands and kissed me again. ''now come on, let's go make a motion picture'' he said as he pulled me up off the couch and lead me onto the set. he sat me at the bar sequence as the director came over to us and said ''Grita iam so glad you're here, are actress has become a drama queen so were replacing her and want to know if you'll do this scene''. he asked as Rudy looked down at me and shook his head ''yes''. ''i will, i know the part and everything''. ''he escorted me over to where natacha was standing next to a rack of costumes and said ''she's taking may's place, quickly get her fitted and back on the stage''. he said as she took my hand, and put me behind a dressing screen, she took the dress i was to wear and helped me get undressed. ''oh it's a little to big, your so thin'' she said as she got some safety pins and started taking in the dress. she also put a few on the bottom, of the dress then said ''wait a minute''. she said as she disapperd for a minute. when she returned she had the largest pair of pump i had ever seen they had a six inch heal. ''what is that''. ''to give you some height, so you can be at shoulder length to Valentino''. she said as she put them on me and started buckling them, and thats they day a star and a trademark were born. i literally had to put one foot in front of the other and stand perfectly straight, if not i would've fallen over in a type of prat fall. the scene called for me to be bewildered by rudy, and kinda annoyed and look away from him as were talking. ''action''. the director yelled as i walked into the bar, i turned to look at the camera, as Rudolph came up behind me and gently licked my ear lobe. i made a kind of swishing motion with my hand, to shoo him away and walked forward sensually. i proped myself against the wall, when he came over and pinned me to the corner. he started to lean in to kiss me but i turned my face away to the left at the other camera and gave a soft of innocent do, eyed bambi look when the director looked up at me and yelled . ''cut, that was amazing, i loved the way you looked at me''. he said as he shook my hand and rudy kissed me. i staggered back to the dressing room with rudy who joked ''you've reached new heights my love''. i smiled and picked up the sequined dress and showed him these horrible 6 inch buckled pumps. ''oh dear, i bet you loved that''. he said as i said ''come on iam getting this off''. i said starting to fumble around with the buckle. i finaly took them both off and said ''i feel weird now''. we both laughed as he took my hand and said ''careful''. ''unzip me will you please''. i said moving my hair out of the way as he unzipped the back of the dress. i shimmied out of it and back into my casual clothes. my demin slacks and comfy polo t-shirt, and my heeled boots. ''much better now''. he said as he helped me get dressed and inadvertinlly undressed. i went back with him on the set and watched as he filmed a few more scenes always keeping an eye on me and my watching his movements smiling broadly. when the director yelled cut and print. ''you 2 have both been absoutely wonderful, you my dear girl are going to be a big star i can just see it now''. he said as i replied ''thank you sir, but i really have no intrest in motion pictures''. i said as he replied, ''iam sure youll change your mind''., he took out his wallet and gave me $250. ''whats this''. i asked as i looked at him puzzled. ''to reconsider my dear, and for a great job''. ''your too much'' i replied as i looked at rudy, while the director walk away. ''oh wow, $250 for looking pretty, a new record''. i said as we both laughed and looked over to see natacha, looking so green with envy. ''is she alright''. i said as we walked back to the dressing room to get the rest of our gear. ''yes she will be i guess'' he said as we kissed and said ''i told you, everyone thinks your so cute''. ''but your mine exclusivly'' he said unbuttoning his coustume shirt. '' i know, and iam not intrested in anything they really have to offer unless we can be together''. i said as i helped him the blazer. ''are you ready to go my precious'' he asked as he buckled his belt. ''yes, are you darling''. i replied as i refilled his cigarette case. ''yes, lets go'' he said as i put the case in his pocket. ''ohh'' he said taking my arm and leading me out the door to the awaiting car. ''thank you for refilling my cigarette case''. he said once inside. ''your welcome''. i said putting my legs in his lap.we arrived back at the apartment,''oh yes the lovely task of undressing again for bed''. i said as he replied. ''i know, i cant wait''. i giggled as i took off my polo shirt, and put it in the hamper tommorow was a day off and i was going to do laundry. i finished taking off all my clothes as rudy watched sensually. ''like the show''. i said putting my new found money in a blue box under the bed. ''i love the view from here'' he said in his thick accent. ''your turn''. i said as i sat in the chair amuzed. ''come over here my love and help me'' he said as i obeyed and said ''umm i would love to''. i began undoing his tie, and took off his jacket. he unbuckled his belt and pulled out his shirt tale. i unbuttoned it for him. as he took it off. i ran my long thin fingers down his bare chest as he stop for a moment and moaned. as he finished undressing and we layed in bed out of the blue he said ''will you have my baby''. i thought for a moment and said ''i will one day, if you want me too''. ''i want you too, and sooner rather then later, i think it would be so great if we had a child together''. ''really think so''. ''yes i do'' he replied as i smiled and said ''well then i shall your baby''. ''great lets get started''. he said as he pulled me back onto the bed. ''hey not so fast, theres a few things we have to work out first then we can try for a baby.'' ''what things my dear''. ''well birth control, i have stop taking the pill, then there a little matter of marriage, then there another matter considering where we would raise said baby''. ''i see then''. he said as he layed back and said ''well lets start then, please i've always wanted to have children while i was still young enough to enjoy them''. ''ok well, once i go off the pill it takes month before we can try concieving''. i said, but until then its fun practicing. we both gigled and cuddled together on the bed and fell asleep. the next morning when we awoke and dressed, we went about our household chores with very little amuzment. ''so what do you want for dinner''. i asked as we finished and sat in the kitchen. ''i am cooking dinner today my lady''. he said as he went to the cabinets and ice box and took out a few things. ''well then by all means my lord, let me help with as much as i can''. i said as we both put on an apron and began cooking. ''will you put this on the stove for me please''. he asked as he finished putting water into the pot. ''sure'' i said as i took it over to the stove and set it to a medium flame. once dinner was finished, i said ''i have never tasted traditional italling pasta before, that was so wonderful''. i said as i put the plate in the sink, and said ''i'll wash you dry''. he took the drying towel and said ''well in italy you never cut it, you wind it on the fork and slurp it so it dosent spell, and you usally eat it with a nice wine''. ''intresting''. i said as i finished up the dishes. when we finished, he asked me taking my hand in his ''what do you want to do now my love''. ''i dont, know, do you wanna play a game''. i asked as we sat together on the sofa. ''i dont wanna play a game right, now'' he said kissing my hand and pulling me closer to him. ''well then tell me a story rudy''. i asked as he looked down at me and said ''what kind of story.''. '' i dont care, any story''. i said as he thought for a moment and said ''i dont have any good ones, that i would like to tell of and besides you pretty much already know''. ''i know'' i replied as i nestled closer to him. ''do you want to go outside, and watch the sunset''. he asked as i said ''yes i would''. he took my hand and we disengaged to get up, we unraveled a lawn chair, the long ones that you would use to sit by the pool. he layed on the chair first, then i layed on it inbetween his legs. and together we watched the sunset. ''it so lovely how the sky turns pink just before it sets''. i said as he lit a cigarette and gave it to me, i took a small drag as we layed their just entranced my the golden sun. he took a deep breath and said ''iam so tired angel, lets go inside and rest a little my back hurts''. ok i got up first and stretched. we went backinside for the rest of the day. i turned on the radio to listen to some music as we layed in bed. benny goodman was playing his ragtime music. ''i love this song''. i said as i hummed along to the music. ''it's so hot''. i said wiping my face with a cool wet rag. ''open the window, it should be getting cooler''. he said getting off the bed and helping me open the window then turning down the curtains. ''grita''he said as i tunred and looked at him and said ''yes rudy''. ''have you thought bout the children''. i stopped for a moment and said ''yes everything i think bout that isnt you is them, i miss them so much, but i know there ok''. ''do you want to go and see them tommorow''. ''no my lord, i dont want to set one foot on their property, her husband dosent like me and i dont like him''. ''what did he do to you''. ''he was the one who sold me to jason, and that i can never forgive, so i wont see him or her, if you want to see them arrange for them to come here''. she replied as she cuddled closer to me. ''besides honey, there is someone i want to go and see tommorow and i want you to come with me''. she said as i looked down at her. ''really who''. ''this nice boy i met, at the theatre his name is leslie and he asked me to come up, but i dont know him well enough to go alone''. she said as i replied, ''my precious natacha is comming round tommorow to take those photo's. perhaps we can go in the evening''. i said as she nodded and said ''iam still skeptical about her, i dont trust her, there is something with her i just cant quite put my finger on it'' she said casually looking at me. ''hey its been 2 weeks since i stopped taking the pill''. she said as she went to mark the calander. ''i know, hey what would you like to name her if shes a girl''. i asked as she came back and layed in my arms. ''emily madeline''. ''and if it a boy''. ''well any young strapping boy should be named after their father''. she replied as i said i would like my second son named after me and my first son to be named Giovanni''. ''really''. she asked as i said ''i was my fathers name, and i would like to nick name my first son yankee''. ''why my lord''. she said as i responded ''i just think it sound so adorable, and besides he is going to be''. she giggled and said yankee it is then''. i rubbed her belly and said ''i want to be involved in everything, including the delivery''. ''ok, now quarells there my prince'' she said as she kissed me. we fell asleep together as i thought of holding our child in my arms and swinging him/or her around as we played in the yard. the next morning natacha arrived earlier then expected, we were still asleep as she came to call. i moaned as she knocked at the door, then i put on my robe and went inside the front room, to answer the door. i looked through the peek hole to see natacha standing there. ''natacha it's really early''. i said opening the door as she just walked right in and said ''i want to get some photo's of the 2 of you sleeping''. ''oh''. i said let me wake grita''. ''no no no dont wake her i want it to be authentic.'' she said as she assembled her camera and i led her in back to our bedroom. she came into the room and pulled back the blanket and said ''i want you to get in bed next to her and touch her''. i looked at her puzzled and said ''touch her'' ''yes touch her''. she said sternly as i obeyed and started touching and caressing my sleeping girlfriend. ''lick her breasts''. she said as i obeyed and Grita woke up. ''what are you doing''. she screamed as she saw natacha. ''taking pictures''. she said as she said ''great not that your awake i want to both to kiss and start playing with each other''. ''natacha, i dont know what your playing at here, but dont like other people in our intamate life''. Grita said as i covered her with my robe. ''if this is the type of pictures your intrested in, i wont have any part''. grita said as i pulled her closer to me. ''well,its ok you'll get used to the idea, now come on then time to get into your costumes''. i was beginging to see it more and more, she was manipulative and bossy, and flat out rubbed me the wrong way, i was only tring to keep it together for rudy, and trying to still be a proper lady. ''ok come with me'' she said roughly taking my forarm and pulling me away from rudy, she threw me into the bathroom and threw somethings in there with me and said ''here try this on''. i obeyed as i heard her in the next room flirting with rudy. ''look you're really a very charming lady, but iam quite content with my angel''. he said pushing her away as she said ''will see''. Grita walked in to see this. ''right what do you want me to do know natacha''. ''stand here on the pedistal, while we kneel at your feet''. rudy helped me onto the platform. i posed as they kneeled before me. it wasnt long before i caught natacha back rudy into a corner, she was getting closer and closer as i watched. i couldnt quite hear what she was saying. then it happened she kissed him. i was so mad and upset i stormed off in the other direction. i went to the bedroom ripped off the silly costume. i put on my casual skirt, a lovely cashmir tight sweater wrapped a scarf around my neck and my keds and ducked out of the apartment. ''oh what, a complete bitch i cant believe her nerve''. i spat as i walked down the path way to the amabasador hotel. ''what was that number again, 112, 121, 211, thats it 211'' i wispered to myself as i entered the lobby, i went to the front desk and asked ''where is 211''. ''down that corridor to your right''. ''thank you''. i said as i saw the man from the corner of my eye and heard him say, ''someone is going to have some fun tonight''. i loosened my long hair for its que as i walked down the coridor, i ran my fingers through it so that it was flowing down the back of my head when i reached the door. i took a deep breath and knocked. ''who's there'' i heard him said as i replied ''les its me grite, remember from the other night''. the door swung open quickly as i stood before him. he took my hand and said ''yes i remember, please do come in''. ''thank you'' i said as i came in and looked around. this room looked different then the other 2 i had been in, this past april. ''iam so glad you came by, i was just thinking about you'' he said pouring me some tea. nervously i said ''really what about''. ''how you took my breath away, and your soft voice''. he said as he handed me the tea. ''thank you, i thought bout you too''. i said as i he sat down next to me. ''what about'' he said as i took his hand and said ''this''. ''now i know, that marriage isnt for everyone but, i also know that if i were married i would be loyal and faithful to my partner''. ''why have you come'' he asked as i said ''i wanted to see you despite my apprehensions''. i said as leaning in closer. ''theres no reason to be afraid to be afraid of me, i wont hurt you unless you ask me too my dear''. he said as we got closer. ''well what do you think of me'' he asked taking my hand in his and putting them together. ''i think your very dashing and dapper''. i said as he replied ''i think your very pretty and i want you, i want you right now''. he said as i said ''you cant have me'' i stood and said ''i'll be back at 5:00 and if iam late you can start with out me''. and with that said i walked to the door. he took me the the for arm and threw me against the wall and we kissed, it was the first time i felt sparks and had butterflies in my stomach. i didnt want it to end when i felt him start to slowly unbutton my sweater. ''no''. i said as i managed to push open the door, and said ''i am sorry for comming down here im already in a realtionship''. flustered and unsure i hurried down the coridor and out onto the street. i swore i wouldnt ever come bac here to see him again, and that a kiss is just a kiss and nothing more. i put my hair back up in a pony tail as i opened the apartment door. to see rudy and natacha in bed together laughing and smoking. ''whats this'' i asked jumping in bed between them. ''where did you go my love i missed you''. ''i went to the cinema'' i lied as he said ''dressed like that''. ''it was the fancy multiplex on 5th ave''. i lied again as i took natacha's cigarette. and took a long drag she made a face and seemed agry for my return. ''so what was so funny''. i asked as he put his arm around me and said ''it dosent matter know that your here my love''. he said kissing me and taking my hand. ''why did you leave with out telling me, i was worried'' he said as i replied ''i just got bored''. i said looking at natacha with a raised eyebrow. ''well iam glad you're back'' he said unbuttoning the top button of my sweater. i leaned in closer smiling and helping him a little when he said ''bye natacha''. she huffed and walked out slamming the door behind her as she left. ''did you fuck her'' i asked casually as i got up from the bed and started undressing. ''no why would i sleep with her, when were together''. ''i just asked, since i thought you really enjoyed that kiss''. i said closing the door and walking into the apartments other bedroom. ''dont stay up to long''. Grite, Grita'' he said as he followed me as i shut the door. ''come on, i didnt kiss her she kissed me and i told her to stop i wasnt intrested''. he said outside my door. ''well either way, iam sleeping in here tonight''. i said as i went and layed on the bed. i heard him go into the other room. as i layed in bed my mind drifted back to leslie, i was right i thought i shouldnt have gone over there. i started to undress, when i heard a soft knock at the door, then i heard rudy say ''grita iam so sorry, i shouldnt have let her in this morning, please let me in i want to be with you''. i went to the door and opened it and said ''iam sorry too, i lied to you i went to see a boy''. i said as he pushed open the door and said ''then i guess will both die of treason''. he said taking me in his arms and holding me tightly. we both went back into the other bedroom and slept together for the rest of the night. the rest of the week was quite slow and daunting as it was nearing christmas time and we were just content being together in our small apartment. i decided months ago back in july what i was going to get rudy for christmas. i had seen it in a magazine and i thought it was perfect. it took forever to arrive and since we were always together i didnt want to send it to the apartment so i had it sent to a friends house. anna de beer, was an actress. ''what are you 2 doing for christmas'' she asked as rudy replied ''well it will just be the 2 of us, and i think it will be fun''. ''non sence, why dont the 2 of you come and be with me and my family for christmas''. ''sure if grita says its alright''. ''do you want to go rudy'' she asked me as i said ''yes''. ''well anna it looks like were going to your christmas party'' i said winking at her. ''you ready to go now''. he asked me as i finished brushing my hair. ''yes my lord, iam ready''. i said appearing at his side as he finished clipping his suspenders. ''lets go'' he said kissing me as i put the cigarette case in his pocket and took her arm. we arrived early at around 4 o'clock that evening. ''hey anna were early'' i said as she said i know just what to do with you 2''. ''come on your gonna be santa and his elf''. she dressed us up and led us back into her living room. we handed out presents and then i saw him out of the corner of my eye. Leslie, i handed him the present as our eyes met, i noticed he touched my hand as i pulled it away and continued greeting everyone. when we were finished and we were dressed in our formal dinner clothing we sat down to christmas dinner, i sat right next to rudy on purpse and kept close to him. Leslie stared. ''anna please don't leave me alone with leslie''. ''iam just not comfortable with him is all''. i said as she looked at me. we managed to slip away to one of the upstiars bedrooms where i had hidden rudy's present the day before. ''i have a present for you'' i said as i went to the closet and pulled up the trap door to reveal a large box. ''oh my angel''. he said kissing my forhead and said ''i have a present for you too''. he went into the other room and brought in an oddly shaped box and said ''lets open them at the same time''. i nodded and kenlt on the floor and tore open the box. it was a brand new guitar. ''oh my god Rudy, this is so lovely'' i said as he opened his box to reveal a baby cradle. ''what is this''. ''its a cradle, i mean we have to put the baby somewhere right'' she said as i knelt beside her and said '' its been a little over a month now''. ''oh honey''. i said taking her up in my arms as we were interupted was leslie walked into the room. ''oh my god iam so sorry'' he said as i looked at him. he closed the door when grita said ''come let's take our presents and go home''. i agreed and we carefully slipt out. we went outside were we breifly caught a glimpse of leslie who was smoking a cigarette near the window. Grita looked at him for a moment when she said ''here put this in the car, iam just going to say something to leslie''. she said as she went over to him. he took her forarme and lead her out of earshot. ''you listen to me leslie and you listen well, i dont ever want to see you again, this wasnt a funny prank and i shouldnt have gone there that day it was a terrible mistake of which i regret for the rest of my life''. she slapped him hard and ran off back in my direction. ''everything alright my love''. ''yes now it is''. that night, i knew we would be together forever. ''we have to make a schedule so we can make sure the timing is correct''. she said when we got home. ''i think 3 times a day, three days a week''. ''sounds good to me'' i said kissing her passionatly as she curled up in the fetal position on the bed. ''what days do you want, i think mondays, wed. and fridays, that way it will give us plenty of rest in between'' she said as i stroked her hair. ''ok my love, why did you slap Leslie for''. i asked as we kissed again. ''oh umm i slapped him because he was trying to groupe me'' she said as she got closer to me. ''hey did i tell you rudy that rex ingram wants me to be in on of his new comedies over at mgm, and wants me to meet louis b. mayor, i want us to be together and i want you to be with me on the set or else i wont even consider the project, but i want to know i still want to have a child and will have one and just betogether''. she said as i said ''what kind of comedy''. ''well he wants me to do slapstick like roscoe arbuckle, you know to play around and make funny faces at the camera''. she said scrunching up her nose as i put my hands over her eyes. ''stop that'' she said moving my hand to her breast. ''i hope iam not in a roscoe arbuckle film, he's really massive and might kill me''. she joked as we both laughed and gigled. she was to report the the set tuesday afternoone, she changed the date because monday we were busy. sunday night was intresting we were assembling the baby's cradle. ''ok this part connects to this''. she said reading the instructions as we both assembled this small cradle. i attached the piece to the other part that formed the rocker. ''how does it look angel''. i asked as she stood up and said ''nice daddy, i think this little baby will be very happy with it''. she said putting a small stuffed bear in the cradle. ''look its, baby giovanni'' she joked as she covered the bear in the cradle. ''stop it you''. ''he so cute though honey.'' i looked at her, she smiled and said ''yankee then''. ''Rudy, i hope if its a boy i hope he looks just like you''. ''well angel if shes a girl i hope she looks like you''. ''fair deal''. she said as i took her in my arms. she was again refilling my cigarette case, and putting tobbaco in my pipe, she gave me my pipe and said ''here you go baby, it's ready to smoke''. she said handing me the matches. ''thank you my love''. i replied as she sat down next to me with a fluffly pillow. she put the pillow in her lab with poppit and tickled her ear idily. she had her arm arond my neck, idily messing with the back of my hair. ''like that'' she whispered, as i moaned a little and exhaled. ''i do my lady''. i replied as i kissed her hand. she smiled at me and said ''tommorow is going to be a fun one, then i figure we can have some fun in the after noone, and then at night time too''. ''yes i know my dear, hey do you want to go for a swim'' i asked nicely as she replied ''why not the pool is open and iam so hot''. she said as we went to into our swing suits. ''ready'' i asked as she put on her dressing gown and tied it at her waist. ''aha''. she said as she tied her hair in its que. i kissed her and took her hand. we locked the apartment door as we went to the pool. we moved the pool chairs and towels close to the edge of the pool, we were the only ones there no one was home in the complex, and we were all alone. grita jumped into the pool, on the deep end as i said ''oh god becareful''. ''iam alright darling no need'' to worry''. she said splashing some water in my face. ''come here you''. i said grabbing her and hold her close to me as she wrapped her self around me. the water felt so good, it was a very hot day after christmas, and we were just together in the moment. she kissed me and ran her fingers through my hair, as our eyes met and we kissed again. i started to feel her up but running my hand down up her legs and felt her. she moaned as little as i listened to her shallow breaths. ''i want you right now'' i as she she got closer and we moved to the wall in between kisses. all of a sudden she lept out of my arms and said ''if you want me come and claim me'' she said as she took off running back to the apartment. ''hey i'll get you''. i said as i gave chase, i could here her gigling and laughing as she ran back to the door. ''i've got the key'' i shouted she held it up in the light and said ''not anymore''. i gave chase as she unlocked the door and left it wide open. i followed her and slammed the door. once i reached the bedroom she was laying on the bed smoking a cigarette and said ''well come on then have a go if you think you are hard enough, i can make you listen or i can make you scream, kiss it and make it beter just put your trust in me''. i went to her as she layed on the bed, i took her hand with the cigarette and took it away from her, i took a drag and blew the smoke in my face as i went to the closet, once in there i got 2 of my ties and i took one of her hands as i leaned down and kissed her, i loosly tied it to the bed, then i bit her neck roughly as i tied the other arm to the bed. ''your all mine now'' i said roughly biting her and putting my hand on her neck like i was devouring her. she moaned as little as pulled on the restraints as i said ''you're so naughty''. i said as i stated to undress her. she smiled and stated gigling when i said ''shh be quiet, iam gonna talk''. i looked up at her as i trailed kisses down her chest and stomach, i then pulled down her shorts so she was now completly undressed. i started taking off my wet clothes and left them in a heap by the bed. i climbed back on the bed between her legs and started trailing kisses down her smooth legs. she looked down at me as she said ''what are are you doing''. i leaned back up to kiss her as i began playing with her clit. ''oh my god'' she started as i kissed her and rubbed in a soft soothing motion. ''shhh its all bout your pleasure'' i said as i then inserted 2 fingers inside her''. she took a deep breath as she arched her back and kissed me harder as her bit at her neck. ''oww'' she screamed as i bit harder drawing blood. i looked into her eyes as i moved above her, she was completely at my mercy. i kissed her again licking the outline of her soft lips i entered her. she reared back into the bed moaning loudly as i grabbed the railings and gave a hard thrust. i thrust harder and harder and harder, when i said ''scream my name, call me master''. i said as she obeyed ''Oh you are my master'' she cried out. as i finally let go, and together the 2 of us climaxed. i collapsed on top of her and she put her arms around me and said ''i love you so much''. i kissed her lips, and said ''i love you to my darling angel'' with that she rose from the bed and , went over to change into some dry clothes, she put on my favorite pair of pink ruffled panties, and a black tank top, with her robe over it and layed down on the bed, on her stomach. she then leaned over and turned on the radio, as she flipped through the funny's. ''what are you reading''. i asked lovingly as she moved closer so i could see too. ''the funny's''. she said as she flipped the page, i rested a gentle hand on her back and leaned downward to stare at her. the next day we set off to the studio early, Grita was set to star with mary pickford in the legend of the anne bonney, with my grita playing anne bonney, and mary playing mary read. i didnt have to report to my set til around 10 to shoot some exterior shots, so i got time to see her dressed in full costume, on the beach. we took a small boat to the pirate ship and climbed in, the director told grita to get in the crows nest and them climb down the rope and onto the starboard. then she was to unties the ropes to set sail. ''an action , go grita''. grita climbed down the crows nest and pointed toward the land just up ahead, she threw the rope down to mary as she came swinging down to the starboard, where she carefully started untieing the ropes, she then moved to the edge of the ship just onto the railings and crouched on it and she undid the ropes. suddenly the wind blew and mary grabbed onto the wheel of the boat, and as it turned the starboard came flying into grita and knocked backwards into the water. ''oh my god''. i said as i took off my jacket and dived into the water along with several crew members and mary too. i didnt see her under the water so i went down a little farther, when i came back up i saw some crew memembers near the bowies, then i heard her painful screaming, i quickly swam to where she was. ''out of my way''. i said as the lifted her onto the pier. she was curled into the fetal position as she grabbed my shirt and said ''iam so sorry, rudy, iam sorry''. them the ambulance came, and she screamed even louder as they loader her into the back of the car. ''Rudy''. she cried as the ambulance opened the door and grabbed me, ''come on, come in''. i took her in my arms and held her in my arms as she cried and screamed, it was then that i noticed the blood on her clothing. as we arrived to the e.r the doctors and nurses, all came running out as she pitifly kept crying. ''sir you'll have to wait in the lobby please''. one of the nurses said when i caught sight of the director, some crew members, natacha and mary just arriving. ''did they just take her in''. mary asked as i sat down. just then i saw natacha come up and sit down next to me. ''Rudy, there is something i have to tell you bout grita''. she said as i quickly turned to look at her. ''she was going to surprise you with it today, but it maynot be a surprise after all, Rudy shes 4 months gone, pregnant''. her words stung me as i remembered her saying she was sorry. then the doctor came out and said ''Valentino''. i stood up and hurried over to him. ''Miss Moreno, says your her companion, she suffered a few broken bones,and had a terrible misscarriage iam sorry for your loss sir''. he said as i raced into the room to see her sleeping soundly. then the nurse came in and said ''shes to be discharged and sent home in just a few minutes and to remain on plenty of bedrest until she is fit enough to move about''. i nodded as she gave me the discharge sheet, i signed it. i then wrapped grita in the blankets, and carried her out to the awaiting car. when we arrived back at the apartment i carefully layed her back on the bed, and took off the her clothes. i carefully layed in bed next to her, and pulled the duvet over us. i closed my eyes and fell asleep. the next morning i woke up early, i had a cup of coffee as i heard a soft nock on the door. ''who's there''. i said as i went to the door. ''its me natacha, i came to see how grita is doing''. i opened the door and let her in. ''she hasent woken yet, and i dont quite know how shell take to the news''. i said pouring her a cup of coffee. ''thank you''. she said as i heard grita in the next room knock something over. i ran into the bedroom room to find her siting in the middle of the room with the widow wide open. ''grita'' i said as i knelt beside her, the colour drained from her face as she looked down at me and said ''iam sorry''. the she went back and layed in the bed. ''grita my angel. please talk to me tell me whats on your mind''. i asked as i layed next to her on the bed, ''Rudy, iam sorry''. she said as she closed her eyes. ''oh angel, please talk to me, i want to know how you feel''. she then closed her eyes and turned around on the bed facing the window. she wouldnt eat, or leave the room for three days until i finally threw open the door, and duvet and dragged her out of the bed. ''come on now, you cant be like this forever, here lets have a bath then''. i said taking hehr into the bathroom and drawing the taps.''come on here get in''. i said as i put her in the tub and helped her bathe. she was still limp and in shock when i was drying her. ''it will be ok, we can keep trying my love, you'll see will have our baby soon i promise''. i said as i kissed her cheeck when she said ''why is natacha here''. i dryed her hair and said ''she was only here on monday, she came to see how you were''. ''no she didnt she came to see you, and i bet she was hoping i'd go to pieces so she could get me outta here''. ''thats not true, angel shes gone'' i said as i kissed her and said ''your my girl and mine alone, what ever happenes with me and natacha is only platonic''. ''sure'' she said as i carried her to the bed. i layed on top of her and kissed her as she tried to move away from me and said ''iam not ready yet''. i still kissed her face and said ''i know your not, but i just want you to talk to me and tell me how your feeling''. ''i feel terrible, like ive failed, i can never be the same again, i want to die'' she said again sobbing hysterically. i took her tightly in my arms and said ''we can keep trying my love, and if that dosent work i ride to the gates of hell to have a child with you even if we had to adopt or buy them''. i said as i kissed her. she cried even harder as we layed in bed together just staring. it took her the better part of a month to fully get over it and be happy again, then i started noticing natacha a little more, she was kinda and gentle but didnt understand my realtionship with Grita.